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Its gotta be about meaning . its gota be abotu how my life is suposed to be and enemy is tryna stop me. its gotta be that im soised to change the world. its gotta be tht the story hes told me abput ahead of time is gonan be so magical, Its gotta be that ive been so confused and stuck for so ling for a reason its all part of meaning and my future. Its all about how i see meanign in ilfe where others dont. I see it all as meaning. nothign is not meaningful, everyitng is spurutual. everyting is about god everytig is about poassion glory, glory for god, dancing, god showing up. poeple, sprits, fighting the devil. its about how ive been so afraid. its baout how evenmy ahs tried to atake me out so may time. Its about all the pain ive. been in in every way, seems as tought theres not a pain i cant relate to emotiona, or phsyical. I am so tired of being in pain every day, in everyway He must have known that it would all ead up to the future. THER HAS TO BE A GOOD ENDING to this, and i knwo how...
Theres gotta be hope for me. THers gota be a reason that you have me hear i fel it lord. ,i hae so much passionm but its buried so ofetn bu nukbness but whne i feel it i really feel it. I know im all about passion and you lord. its al baout you and nothign else. ive been thgourgh so much i cant stand it but wouldnt change it but when ifeel i knwo whats its about i knw lord i just want keanign ful god moments all the time efveryday i love whne the starbucks guy inly weites meaningful stuff on my cup nad not just basic messages i loe it so much its waht its all about i hurt lord in o so many ways. and some days i cannot stand to get up mentally meitanly and phsically kord but u ust hae a future for me eer after all this. I wannt to cry i wannt o feel you so bad you have shown me my fuure and i cannot have evern dreame what you show me its bter than thought it could be i know its baout eanign but i get stuck how ma ties did iw ann die and stil lsometimes but there must be...
So much anger.
When i work on a song, and i get emotional, it must prove that God is in this world. it Must when i have nothing else i can blame it on, but i get emoitnal, You are here Lord. Life must be about You Lord! it has to be ! Why would i cry at things of You, why would millions cry at things of you. thers gotta be hope for a powerful future for me Lord let me never forget about my passion for You, cause when i remember, i REALLY remember s oket me never forget, every day. who says you cant be passionate every day. Even tought ive had bad eperieicnes with faith through family, me not turn away. Let me not trow this away. cause I truly know in my heart taht this is correct, for myself.

YUP

Doesn't there just have to be magic in life? More to it than what we see. MAgical moments. Moments where we know God interveiened. And what would be so wrong to crave that every single day. "You cant be happy all the time?" "You can't crave God's prescenc all the time?" why not? what's so wrong about that? "It's not about a feeling." I love things that prove theres more to life. We all love music and art cause it reminds us that there is magic in life. SOmething extraodinary. We created something. aybe it resembles how God created the earth and everyitn in it.