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Its gotta be about meaning . its gota be abotu how my life is suposed to be and enemy is tryna stop me. its gotta be that im soised to change the world. its gotta be tht the story hes told me abput ahead of time is gonan be so magical, Its gotta be that ive been so confused and stuck for so ling for a reason its all part of meaning and my future. Its all about how i see meanign in ilfe where others dont. I see it all as meaning. nothign is not meaningful, everyitng is spurutual. everyting is about god everytig is about poassion glory, glory for god, dancing, god showing up. poeple, sprits, fighting the devil. its about how ive been so afraid. its baout how evenmy ahs tried to atake me out so may time. Its about all the pain ive. been in in every way, seems as tought theres not a pain i cant relate to emotiona, or phsyical. I am so tired of being in pain every day, in everyway He must have known that it would all ead up to the future. THER HAS TO BE A GOOD ENDING to this, and i knwo how it will truely end bt how abot in the mean time here on this rock. bringing the kingdom down like never seen b efore bring your glory down, here, now, in this moennt, powerufly and majestically, lord, it jstu has to be true meanign that i feel ansd pasion for a legit reason when i feel like ok now its time to work on music and its gonna be great. time to get home and do this, coldplay politik . the passion i felet gotta be real gotta be true valid feleings and ffelt it fr valid reasons, gotat be about more than we see its gotta be that al my siffeirnsg are for spefiic reasons, and that every pain ive had was on purpose somehow. its baout walking in faith true faith when im in pain and evern had no option for doctor etc. bt i have the lord. truely beliing that even if i had no way to get to a doctor, or pain meds, that you created me and you created this entire thing so i trust you more than the most educated doctor out there, i trst you i wanna go to the midle of nowhere and jsut be iwth you and trust you with everything. and usut say stubborn nature and stubborn self prably would do this and then jsut say oh no not the time and not do it cause hard to prposefully od it when its not just spontaneuous but i desure this mayeb everb the parts that seem like theyre not part of the story are part. evern the parts that feel like oh gotta get thlis away, are oart of the story as well even the parts where it seemsee like, oh no this gotta get this away from me. its the parts we hide deep inside. That part of it as wel. the lies. its about more than we can see., in fact the thign we cant see is what itss all about. oh you only like this styff cause of )__Hvae trouble doing thigns others can. u onl like this stuff cause of ____